Stefanie's

[John]

@Stefanie

There are two kinds of people: Firstly, there are those who listen to what you have to say and immediately look for a response regarding themselves and their own experience, thinking that such comment is a valid contribution to the world’s problems.
Then there are those who will listen attentively and respond with a wishful comment or constructive critique on what you just said, digging in the matter deeper, showing greater care.

So in essence, the world is divided between the talkers and the listeners. The bad talkers are almost never good listeners. The good listeners can be good talkers as well.

A wish so simple, and so pure: “go with good strength”.
It’s probably something that one would expect to hear before going to a battle field, but it doesn’t always have to be that way…

‘Good strength’, is the kind of wish that makes me smile. I am used to hearing “have a safe trip”, and “have a good return” and “until next time” , etc., but they all imply that I quickly skip through whatever I have to do during my time somewhere, and then safely come back to where my past belongs, to pick up smoothly with my life. But trips are not always restful and planned intervals of a smooth daily routine; sometimes they are unpredictable obligations, from which one strives to inhale all the wisdom one can get. “Good strength”, is the willful desire to use positive power towards all my moments that I will spend to my whatever destination, and I’m happy to have a fresh memory of such a wish inside my heart.

I’m still unsettled, inside… I feel like I’ve been blown by the wind these past few years, here and there… and as unsettling as this may feel, whenever the time comes that I will find myself settled someplace, I think that the realization will be so unbearable and primal, that I will eventually perform something dangerous to comfort myself :o Whatever ‘dangerous’ really means.

There’s a saying “do everyday something that really scares you”. So maybe ‘unsettlements’ are a constructive blessing to life’s experiences after all. Maybe it’s why I am even engaged today !

This is still a training journal… I am still recovering from my illness.

I am sure all the travel and different places haven’t helped. I expect once that is out of the way and you get married that will help.

Personally not so sure doing something that scares you every day is the view the best option, perhaps something that challenges you is better.