Then again, I realize that my post is dripping with more truisms than the movie Hitch so…
after another weekend of insanity and a mental breakdown I have been getting some decent sleep, hydrating, and poring over my life… i know this is fascinating
it has been well over 90 and oppressively humid to the point that we have a heat advisory. Very difficult to run in such weather.
my parents are talking about moving to colorado, now I can die of oxygen deprivation trying to run in the mountains. since im scared of flying, i will be going to home only for christmas if this comes to fruition.
Here’s a qoute that makes you think
“Moonlight becomes you”
motivation is slowly returning… i am missing track more every day.
another night of cash money last night, i am pretty out of it
took a fast-paced steady run, plus a long uphill sprint up capitol hill as fast as I could go… i actually felt some footspeed which i haven’t felt in a long time.
then some quick and easy stretching, and in a bit some core to help put me to sleep, as if i need any help.
a day of rest after three days of drinking. its not as bad as it sounds- i am drinking less at a time, or perhaps put another way: it is taking me more to get wasted, and i am going that extra step far less often.
heading to ohio for the weekend to see my grandparents… what a binge that will bring on. i owe all athletic talent i may posess to my grandfather who is so far gone with alzheimer’s that he recognizes no one… yet he was always an athlete and in such good shape that his body simply continues to live. it’s extremely hard to watch.
aahhhh increasing tolerance how I am well aquitanted. I remember at one point I’d need 12-15 beers to get drunk it took 10 for a buz and i was drinking twixers for a evening of just light drinking. Becareful alcohol how good and bad a friend he is!
haha I know what you mean Zenoth… I know what you mean.
in ohio for the weekend, wanting a drink
but wanting even more to RUN
ohio is really nice, very peaceful. I saw my grandfather, or more accurately i looked at his back as he was sleeping. I have forgone the niceties of my parents’ hotel in favor of sleeping over at my grandmother’s for compnay and so she can get excited about feeding me. I’m afraid she’s lonely without my grandpa there, they had their 70th wedding anniversary last year!! :eek:
After 12 hours of sleep, I went down to the local jogging path and went for a run, taking faster paced intervals of running alternating with pushups and various core/ab exercises. Also did some barefoot strides at the end and stretched well.
I am getting increasingly motivated to get back to working out more, not only because it will soon be august, but also because this is the first summer in quite a long time that I haven’t had an intense bout with an eating disorder… so bad as it sounds, I am used to being bonier around this time of year. I have let the lifting go completely since may, and proper tempo workouts have been sporadic at best, and now I’m getting a little nervous that if I let it get too far I’ll have a LONG way to come back in the fall.
on the upside i suppose my injuries have had ample time to heal, despite me treating my body like a trash can.
I completely hear you… I somehow feel human again - not beat up, a little softer… torn between a desire to run and run fast and a desire to be normal…but motivated once again.
70 years? wow.
finally something of substance to write
Had sort of an interesting night- drank a whole bottle of some bacardi mixed drink by myself without passing out, but it must have had sugar through the roof because instead of putting me to sleep, I was tossing and turning, mind racing, getting up every hour to drink water because it is still deathly hot out… ugh
messed around, walked about in the sweltering heat, then went to the gym in the evening:
-10 min. core circuit, 50s on, 10s off
-treadmill run: 5 min. jog WU, 18 min of 1 min. on, 1 min. off, increasing speed each time and playing with incline. The off minutes were still at a jog, varying incline as well. 4 min. CD jog.
-went to lift for the first time in quite a while. it was my intention to start with deadlifts, do some moderate squats, then move on to upper body just to get a full body in without killing myself the first day back. I did a set of 8 stiff-legged DL’s at decent weight, with the last 3 starting to get difficult, and thought everything was fine. Then of course I bent over to start the next set and got a cramp in my hamsting, and then a cramp in the other one, and stretching just wasn’t doing anything for me so I had to resign myself to immediate soreness and a shift in plan. Boo. :mad:
-3x6 incline bench
-2x8 RR + bi’s + tri’s
-2x8 split squats right and left, fairly easy weight
low volume, nothing crazy. I need to be realistic about what will make me sore now.
My hamstrings are hurting… I am halfway considering going to the gas station to get ice. They are not in knots now, it is the same feeling of little tears that I always get at the beginning of the season, esp after starting to hurdle again. Probably a combination of dehydration, fatigue, and sprinting on a treadmill did me in, but I was still sort of sad about it.
Just doing one workout does so much to increase my motivation. I can’t promise to suddenly transform into the dedicated beast I usually am, but it’s a start. I had EXCELLENT food afterwards, too bad that quality food is exorbitantly expensive!! 
salad w/chicken, a cup of fruit and two bottles of water was $15+! fuckers.
Good to hear your back in some good training. But i don’t think drinking, is good for you. Every now and again, we all drink.
P.S. BOO! (directed at your fucking hammies)
another productive day
the heat advisory has intensified, temps topping 100, plus humidity making it even worse. And with fantastic timing, the air conditioning in the upstairs of my house has started to quit one unit at a time… I will be sleeping on the living room couch tonight becuase that AC is still alive.
made my way to the gym through a thunderstorm:
-pushup/crunch circuit: 10 pushups, 20 crunches, 9+19, etc down to 1 and 11
-treadmill again: 5 min WU, 8x1 min. on, 1 min. off, with each sprint getting faster. I did it all flat and didn’t fool around with incline for the sake of my hamstrings, which are shot. 5 min. CD.
-3x8 lats paired with 3x8 DB bench
-2x8 full squats at easy/moderate weight, back extensions between
I wanted to do something… anything… for lower body but was wary of the hamstrings, so I went with low volume and low weight just to test the waters. What I did was about right, it felt fine while i was doing it and then when I walked around afterwards my butt and quads tightened right up but didn’t cramp. So we are slowly getting somewhere.
Working out again makes me appreciate just how depressed I get when I’m not training. Depending how you look at it, this summer has been one huge party or one huge mental episode, whether it be manic-depressive or PTSD or panic/anxiety… who knows. I’m by no means completely past it, but this is the most serious attempt in a while. I have cut more of the crap out of my diet- it wasn’t too bad, but I could use a little leaning up phase.
anyway, starting to get beautiful now to make $$$$ on friday, then I am escaping to the cape with my best friend for a few days. It will be good for me 
I am still a little scared of myself.
the AC is back on in my house, but now the internet quit so I have to update at the office.
Yesterday I went for a loosening-up day, my hamstrings are still pretty unhappy, along with my IT’s- but a good soreness. I stopped more frequently than usual to stretch, which helped.
-10 min. WU jog, stretch
-did stadium stair sprints up the stairs in front of the national art gallery, 2 sets of 4 sprinting up and jogging down, with a core circuit and a one minute break between sets, and the same after the second set before jogging again. Ran up capitol hill, more stretching, then CD jog home. The whole thing only took about 40 minutes, but it was nice to get some bloodflow.
Filming tonight, then heading to the cape early tommorow morning
filmed, got no sleep, woke up at 4am, went to the cape, and shortly will be going back to DC from boston.
productivity to be continued once i have arrived back.
Are there any public tracks (indoor or outdoor) in DC? I’m visiting right now.
The nicest one I have found is at Gallaudet University- it is a deaf university a couple blocks from the florida ave/gallaudet metro stop on the red line. I believe it is 800 florida ave. Not a great area, but a decent enough track.
Language warning. Swearing is not allowed here.
Rupert
huh? people swear all the time.