I wouldn’t… you seem like one of the few people around here with a life
I haven’t spoken to Fletcher in a while. Do you know where he is headed?
Joesixpack,
I wouldn’t encourage a 19 year old girl to continue drinking like a fish. Having a life is not being a lush! We reap what we sow and Krasnayfluer should look at others for inspiration.
Krasnayfluer-
When things are bad I Read the Count of Monte Cristo and try to think what it’s like to be tortured for real for 14 years ( I wonder if that’s what axel rose speaks of in his song) and dream of making a comeback.
eleven years ago a 18 year old girl found her dad shot in the head and without any next of kin. That same girl had AIDS (not HIV) from her father’s repeated rapes (he saw prostitutes in San Fran) and she never gave up. NEVER. To this day when I want to quit I think of her situation and keep going. I went to look at the police reports and found that the father put her on medications after she called 911 at age 10.
Do you want AIDS Krasnayfleur? Keep having “short term” relations with guys and you will have a disease that will kill every cell in your body.
Persephone was picking narcissus (Narke, which means numbness in Greek was a ancient anti-depressant) flowers when Hades found her. Only those who are very investigative knew of her problems because she fought every day to keep her spirits up. He made her his Queen, but only because she was productive without the drugs. He had her look at things differently in order to be free from her chemical chains.
Be Persephone.
Interesting
I wasn’t advocating her being a lush, thank you.
Anyone can tell by what she writes here that she’s at worst an accidental lush. She’s living in basically the real world house as I understand it, alcohol constantly around, availible, and guess what? Everyone else there isn’t an athlete and doesn’t understand.
Furthermore, She’s gone her entire hs and freshman years non-stop, hardcore, all about track. She (im just guessing) is obviously still dedicated. Doesn’t mean she has to be a solider about it. I would wager that a summer off to decompress will help more than hurt.
None of which is relevant to the point I was making which is plain and simple: She has a life, and the best part about her journal is that she lets us in on it. This serves a few good purposes. First, its an example of how to manage time effectively, something I always need help in. Second, it meshes better with what I know about life and training, that Shit happens and you need to deal with it. Lastly, it just shows what an awesome girl Kra happens to be.
So Kra - I stand by my words. Don’t truncate it.
And to the rest of the board - try reading what people say.
Don’t know if it really went that way. Many sources believe that:
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Persephone was in a lush meadow picking flowers when she came upon the hundred-blossomed narcissus that had been planted by the earth mother Gaia to please the god of death, Hades (aka Pluto), who was Persephone’s uncle. As Persephone bent to pluck it with both hands, a chasm opened in the ground and Hades, who had instantly fell in love with Persephone, emerged to abduct her down into his realm of the underworld.
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Hades tricked Persephone into eating pomegranate forcing her to have to spend 1/3 to 1/2 of her time each year in the underworld.
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The main reason Hades made her his queen is because she was promised to him by Zeus without consulting her mother -Demeter.
A better choice might be Artemis or Athena.
Spoken like a guy who reads the greek myths from Hamilton and Bulfinch, bastard versions! This happens to be Krasnayfluer’s favorite myth story.
Hades is the man and Batman is not a criminal.
So what is it Real Deal 6 months or 3 months? What do your sources say? And why?
Krasnayfluer is a bright young woman and she will make the comeback. Her choice I hope is to be a reJENeration of strength.
I took a course in Greek Mythology. We used a few books. Our main text was by Philip Mayerson, professor emeritus at NYU. Ever heard of him?
I got nothing but love for Kra, and wish her the best!
thanks all, I appreciate the responses.
Since things seem to have come to a sort of internvention point, I will make a statement 
I realize this site is intended for sports and training journals are about training. Looking over the first volume of my journal and going through this one, I have dedicated the majority of my posts to describing my training, perhaps with other material in accompaniement. As Herb and I have discussed in brief over PM, I find that posting the kinds of things I have been posting lately is highly relevant to training. The sport of track and field requires an entire shift in one’s mental approach to everything, and being dedicated to the sport is a lifestyle choice (in general.) Understanding that, and also knowing that I am a very mentally involved runner whose training and performance often corresponds directly with other areas of my personal life, I find my “extraneous” material highly germane. I think it is valuable to be able to look back and see, if nothing else, the havoc I have been wreaking on my body, so that when I underperform or it takes me longer to get back into a serious program, or when I get injured more easily, I will know exactly why. The sheer volume of the posts of a non-focused and drunken nature will present a solid argument in numbers alone, precluding excuses, denial, and uncertainty in the future.
I do not doubt that I will overcome whatever it is I am facing- made so much more difficult to deal with because I’m not sure what exactly set me off-track. As joes said, I have been working myself at an unrelenting pace for 5 years. My first year of college was in many ways pretty traumatic, and the accident and the surgery which ended the spring were quite a lot more devastating that I’d like to admit. Underperforming all year was horribly demoralizing and made me doubt myself. I have always been volatile (how could I be a sprinter and not be 
) and I must have reached a breaking point somewhere along the way. Anyone who knows me well knows how dedicated I have always been and just how close to my heart track is, and I have always sacrificed so much to make myself the best I can be. For something to be powerful enough to take away even my focus from track, it has to be monumental- and that is what I have been confronted with, so many things converging and hitting me right when I was low. I have been a fighter my whole life and I have come through setbacks more terrible than this. I face enormous, unimaginable pressure from my parents to maintain my good side- going to Williams, running track, getting A’s, and all the rest of it- and also to master my darker side and hide the demons I battle every day. I seem to have cracked a bit, but believe it or not I will not be broken.
Thus, the reasons for my posts. I know I have some avid readers, but when it boils down to it, I use this journal as I think best serves ME- and if at times my training is a resource to others then I am doubly glad. When I train properly again, the posts will reflect that- and that time will come. There will never be a time when I stop trying… successful or no.
I love persephone.
I am black widow.
if anyone reads all the way to the bottom of this monster post- im impressed!
3 or 6 Real Deal?
Yes Kras, you are the black widow and you must never give up fighting the kingpin.
Clemson,
Out of consideration to this journal and to prevent an ensuing back and forth posting we can continue our Mythology debate via PM.
One thing I know is that you have to want to do good for yourself and not anyone else. As the great Bob Marley once said: “Every man got a right to decide his own destiny.” Everyone in this life has their journey. You have a right to make your choice and deal with the consequences.
That said, I appreciate you letting us in on your journey.
Let us all look and learn from her journey!
you drew first REAL DEAL so how may seeds? After you post that we will be done with it. The persephone myth is one that Kras enjoys and I would say I am an expert on that specific myth to the point of insanity.
Im going to have to read this mysterious myth you guys are talking about… seems like some crazy stuff. How long is it and where could I find it? Should I even bother or would I hate it?
finally going to get in some good sleep- thurs night i was woken up by some drunk shmuck climbing into my bed at 4am, friday i was throwing up, last night i was so strung out that i literally did not sleep at all, but tonight i came home sober and got ready for bed and it feels so good 
In the interest of getting 8 solid hours of sleep, i am planning on going to the gym after 8 hours of work, instead of getting up early in the morning. not ideal, but what i really need right now is to get hydrated and to get some z’s. my body has put up with far too much abuse in the past week.
“only when I reached rock bottom and was in the lonley unseen depths of what i was capable off was i able to pick myselfup and come back with such passion that all bore witness to the rebirth the second chance.”
mmmmm
worked for 8 hours straight on my feet which was pretty miserable, so predictably the last thing i wanted to do after walking home was work out. But i went out for an evening run anyway at a good pace, including a couple long hills and some fast intervals as desired. came home after a half hour or so and did a 10 min. core circuit with pushups at 50s on + 10 off, then a thorough stretch and a small shake of only protein.
am currently sober and also clean of god knows what else i was doing a couple days ago. sleep last night was such a wonderful thing, and tonight looks like another good night of it. It is hard to fall asleep so early when i have become accustomed to debauchery lasting into the wee hours 
Just thought this picture was a gooder.
thats classic herb. it reminds me of my dog, whos a six pound maltese that thinks hes king of the world. he even attacked a racoon 3 times his size :eek:
I have officially sold my soul
Thank You