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Thank you. 
Ughghhh… I’m sick… !!! :mad: There goes my “perfect non-sick 2008 record”… Darn.
And for the sake of procrastination and pure fun, I am going through my check list again 
red = done
blue = in progress
black = haven’t even started
grey = cancelled
(17 days left, I think I can do this :o)
- Finish a Track-Club Logo design (although the guy has miraculously disappered now, I think he is avoiding payment)
- Finish children’s Book 3 illustration corrections…
- Make children’s Book 3 cover. (then maybe I can finally get paid for this Book???.. >> no, not paid yet, btw… :mad:
- Finish children’s Book 4 illustrations (ughh this one is a larger task…)
- Make children’s Book 4 cover…
Added task:
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Design two “funky-looking” libraries.
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Finish a friend sprinter’s painting. (this is what I have to finish till Tuesday)
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Finish Javi’s painting to send to the U.S. Poor man asked for it a century ago. (hasn’t arrived yet though !)
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Start and finish a Virgin Mary for my track friend.
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Will most likely have to start and finish a large Nature Painting for another track friend…
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Finish the Felix painting
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Finish the African painting
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Finish the other African painting
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Finish the Quantum painting (I think this is transforming into something else)
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Finish the Blue painting
Books:
- “The Field”
- “The Divine Matrix”
- “Biology of Belief”
- “CF Elite Concepts”
- “How to win friends and influence people” (didn’t like it)
- “Think and Grow Rich”
And now I also started: - “Atlas Shrugged”, Ayn Rand
- “Les Miserables”, Victor Hugo
Two very thick books…
Atlas Shrugged is excellent. Definately worth getting through.
Yes, so far so very good !! Her other one, “The Fountainhead”, is one of my favorites.
Sunday, Decebmer 21st.
sick sick sick… 
- 1hr of Isometrics. while listening to Christmas music!!
Long night ahead again with my painting. My sister says it looks complete, but I don’t…
Monday, December 22nd.
I don’t know why I went on my bike during a cold, in COLD weather, and blasting head-wind, crossing the city along the shore to go to work, but I did … !!!
Anyway, I am sick :o
This day only consisted of a couple of Isometric holds.
Painting finished… lack of sleep…
Tuesday, December 23rd:
40min isometrics
And… strong emotions…love?
Perfect timing … as always… oh Lord. (I am freakin moving in 2 weeks 
)
The story of my life is heart-consuming.
Nice though…
should that be or :o ?
= :eek: … (:o)
bizarre things… the same thing is happening to me…
the girl i’m dating with is going to move to brazil in mid-februrary…
Salutes to Brazil then…
If you do like her, make the trip.
Wednesday, December 24th.
20min isometrics
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Whatever that means… =)
[i]This year has been the least “christmassy” year I have experienced. Very spiritual, just not christmassy…
Have I lost interest in Christ? Perhaps in some way, but I feel that the lost interest is of a beneficial kind, allowing for hidden virtues to unfold. I feel more at peace than ever before. Unsure, mystified, contemplated, mused over…
Despite a sister-debate, my personal verdict is that I am not an atheist; I actually have a pretty nice relationship with God (whatever that is :o), or the Divine, if that suits better.
The differnece is that I am trying to learn how to hold on to divinity on a now-basis, rather than trying to tune in my emotions with calender dates that meant something in the distant past and we try to emulate on given days of our present lives.
Nevertheless, Jesus was very cool and a nice role model. I wouldn’t have turned into the person I am today without a Jesus in my mind !!
What is my overall point? ??
I forgot. … :rolleyes:
Anyway…
addictions… Perhaps religion is a form of addiction.
Like training.
It gives us momentary “highs”; satisfies us for some periods of time, until it starts hurting in one form or another.
I think religion hurts when you “grow out of it” and become aware of personal limits. I seek treatment out of such addiction from grasping the true meaning of it, and not the smelly surface.
Training hurts when …
I am not sure, yet.
I am still constantly experiencing the momentary highs, which build up tolerance.
And this addiction crashes whenn…
I am hoping for a deadline spotted far away on an infinite time table, because the concept is too perfect in my mind to set limits to.
But like all addictions, when they do occur and the crash point appears, sometimes it is more comforting to return to the addiction rather than run away from it.
I hope I avoid such solution in whatever aspect of my life.
Nobody knows what will happen in the end, all I know now is the importance of finding addictions that unhide hidden truths that have been kept secret for whatever reason there is…
And the bottom line is… nothing ever makes full sense. :o (let alone the above post!!!)[/i]
Thursday, December 25th
35min isometrics
Friday, December 26th
35min isometrics
If you find the above post boring, check out my latest bruise picture, taken on day 11 (I’m on day 13 now), there is some yellow going on, so I am right on track according to the “medical literature” … 
Saturday, December 27th
OFF
Sunday, December 28th
45min isometrics
My heart is about to explode from life’s anticipation…
Monday, December 29th
50min isometrics
I have nothing exciting to say…
Except that I was told today that I look like a “guru”, by a guy who just met me today …
Something about exhibiting calmness… although I don’t feel calm at all at this very moment. Ahh…
what about the budding romance? 
Uummm… let me get back to you on that in 5-6 days…
I am very unstable at the moment. As usual…
From next Wednesday onwards tons of stability though!
God, yes … >> An abyss ahead.
The only things that are stable right now are my dreams.
Tuesday, December 30th
20min isometrics
30min + 30min bike to/from work. The fact of not wearing gloves on a bike, along the shore, in a 5degree C temperature felt hurtful at first, but then I decided to practice my self-warming-blood circulating skills.
There’s work to be done :eek:
I watched “Australia” today. It was good, but on a scale of 10 it got a 7.
And the sickness is gone.
The bruise is almost vanished.
Today was my last day at work.
And one more day to get rid of whatever left trash there is and move forward, steadily towards instability …
Wednesday, December 31st:
OFF
Happy 2009 to everyone !!
With ample dreaming, fulfilling living, inspiration and success.
[b]Thursday, January 1st, 2009 /b
45min isometrics (spread out through the day, because I decided so, and was home all day)
On another note, my mind is cluttered and my stomach feels tight. Hopefully I’ll sleep it out now.