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Stefanie · January 8, 2011, 6:08pm

Νοt quite, I’ll post one here tomorrow I think !!

Today was a good day, overall…

Saturday, Jan.9th, 2011

15min run
some drills
5 x 150m hills (ouch) slowww walk back recoveries

here’s my hill :o (it’s a real TOUGHIE…).
I know one might comment on the asphalt surface, but I really have no problem with it. I have problems with other things, but not this wonderful hill !!

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[i]Brief notes:

This has been a very diffucult week, with family matters.
Training-wise, I came to the conclusion that perhaps training with a bunch of people who all are watched by meticulous coaches’ eyes, creates feelings of envy. But regardless of how much I hate my solo Milan-training sometimes (and this comees to mind because I’m travelling there again soon), I also enjoyed my solitary hill session today, and felt free as a bird, while accomplishing something higher than what the average club-athlete does. My task is more difficult, and demands more respect, in the end… Not that I expect it, but deep down I know.
I think my middle sister is the best person on planet earth, and I wish the best for her with all my heart, but life never gives her all that she deserves, and that is frustrating to me.
Parents are very frustrating also, sometimes. To the point of wonder.
I got engaged today! I feel really peaceful and happy about it. I’m not the most stable personality when it comes to feelings of devotion and ‘eternal love’, but I have come to understand things better, and I’ve found that when you give your best to someone, it rebounds right back. There’s no better means of self-improvement and self-balance… really. And I do love Dejan. :o
I accepted an apology today by a person who hardly ever apologizes to anyone (my mom) and that felt …hm, nice and relieving? But it felt uneasy and bad at the same time, because I understand that she felt regret and guilt about what she did that made her apologize… And I don’t like the feeling of knowing that my mom feels so bad about something… even though she apologizes… Love is a strange and complicated matter, afterall.
But it’s a good day, afterall… [/i]